Tricking Kids into Learning Through Games

Tricking Kids into Learning Through Games

Guest post by Val Okamoto

Val Okamoto is a queer, neurodivergent artist and creative. They recently graduated from CSUF where they studied both theatrical art and studio art, with specialties in sculpture, theatrical design, and media analysis. They are a lover of games, snakes, musicals, and art of all kinds.

I was an incredibly stubborn kid. So much so that my mom, an elementary school teacher, couldn't convince me that she had taught me anything until I was in my teens. Because of my childish refusal to the idea that she could possibly teach me anything, she had to come up with some clever ways to trick me into learning, so now I have the pleasure of passing some of these onto you.

When I was really little, before entering kindergarten, my mom would constantly play word games with me. "That's not learning, that's playing, so I'll allow it," my little brain thought. Every time we were in the car, my mom would point out the different objects and buildings we drove by, enunciate the word, stretch it out, and have me practice saying them. Interactivity is essential.

"That is a bus, bu-uh-ss" "Bu-uh-ss" "Bus, bus, bus" "Bus, bus, bus"

Once I could recognize most of the objects we passed-bus, car, store, road, light- we moved on to more complex words and ideas, and the games we played grew more complex as my understanding did. Learning how to say the words turned into guessing games, learning letter sounds turned into word play, and we even made up our own as time went on. This back and forth practice laid the foundation for literacy.

"Bus" "Ball" "Bake" "Bike" "Bar" "Bed" "Bread" "Brake"

"Bus" "Stop" "Pool" "Listen" "Night" "Tear" "Red" "Dad"

In the early stages of development, even exposure to language and communication can build strong foundations for those skills later on. By asking them to repeat and respond, they are listening, absorbing, and processing, as well as practicing spoken language and pronunciation. Introducing learning as an interactive game, as opposed to a boring lecture, can prevent, or at least postpone, resentment and the association between education and boredom or frustration. By the time I got to kindergarten, I already knew how to read. (Not that I believed my mom when she told me she taught me, though.)

As I grew older, we started playing more complex games. My parents introduced me to so many new types of games, like board games, card games, video games, and even sports. They included quite a few that had educational benefits. There are many classic games, like Uno, Scrabble, Mancala, Chess, Checkers, Backgammon, Go, and playing card games like Rummy or domino games like Mexican Train and Pai Gow, as well as newer and more complex games like Risk, Settlers of Catan, Phase 10, Set, and Spot It, that teach important lessons and skills.

Games with money show the importance of being able to do math, word games favor those with larger vocabularies, and most tend to reward those who think ahead and create plans and backup plans. Most of these games require pattern recognition skills, critical thinking, strategy, and resource management, which can allow children to practice real life skills in low-stakes environments. They allow kids to gain the agency that childhood often robs of them, and creates many teachable moments when conflict arises.

These kinds of games also facilitate the development of emotional regulation. A big part of playing games is losing, and I've met quite a few adults who hadn't learned how to handle the big emotions that can come up when losing. Getting ample practice failing and simultaneously receiving support on how to improve creates a fantastic environment to promote learning. Games show kids that failure is a part of life, but that they also have the choice to get up, keep going, and try again. I should also mention that my parents did not take it easy on me, which made me put a lot more thought into my strategies if I wanted to win. It took 10 years for me to beat my dad at tennis. That day was truly glorious, since all the time I spent learning and practicing was proven to be worth it.

Children also need games to play by themselves, and there are lots of individual or solo games that also educate. Sudoku, word searches, crosswords, and other paper games exist. There is a plethora of online resources as well, including escape rooms and mazes that require simple math problems to find one's way out of, which my mom uses in her classroom occasionally.

As a child, I had a Nintendo DS, which was compatible with educational games like Brain Age and Big Brain Academy, which focus on reasoning, logic, arithmetic, and flexible cognition. Again, these games helped to build my association between education and fun, and they became regulars in the roster of games I would play. I also remember taking the GATE test in elementary school, and some of the questions felt similar to the kind of practice I got on my DS, and I ended up being accepted to the program. Some of these games, and others like them, are available on the Nintendo Switch now.

Once I started nearing middle school and entered the "I want nothing to do with my parents" stage, they had to come up with even more workarounds. One of the solutions they found was allowing me to choose some fun summer classes and workshops in our community. Many state colleges also have classes for kids over the summer that teach anything from chemistry to comic books to coding to creative writing.

Photo credit: close-up of a d20 on a pile of dice by Esther Derksen from Getty Images, Canva Pro

One of my favorite things they did was learn something new with me. The instance that resonated with me the most was learning how to crochet. My grandmother and my mom took me to a beginner's crochet class at a craft store, where we learned some basic stitches and made little potholders.

Since none of us had ever crocheted before, we were all on the same level and I was in a class with children and adults alike. There is a constant power imbalance between parents and their children, and the experience gap can become grating for the child, who is always at a disadvantage. By shifting the dynamic and leveling the playing field, children feel less like, well, children. They want to be treated like adults, so being in a class with adults made me feel very grown up, especially when I picked it up the techniques faster than them. And while my mom no longer remembers how to crochet, I still pick up my hook from time to time.

The activity doesn't have to be crocheting or crafts, it could be coding, baking, painting, learning a language, playing an instrument, or something else unique to you and your family, but ultimately, it needs to be something your kid is interested in. All you have to do is show an interest in it too. Just be ready for when your kid gets better than you.

Video Games & Safety to Practice Life Skills

Why Some Neurodivergent Gamers Seek Safety in Gaming Spaces

My posts are specifically for neurodivergent people and those who consider video gaming an integral part of their lives. When our brains and bodies are different, there are things even we don’t fully understand about ourselves. We wouldn’t be able to explain to others why taking part in a virtual world is so powerful and important, but it is. I hope to write on reframing experiences to add to how we see others in our lives, and for gamers to have the opportunity to explore who they are. This will help you pick and choose how to describe your world and how to advocate for yourself.

Why We Need Safety to Practice Life Skills

Whenever we talk about the differently wired brain, there will be invisible conditions and hardships other people will not see from the outside. There is a high correlation between sensory differences that overwhelm and drain the brain, making “easy” tasks like everyday living difficult for many people. A lot of gifted and creative individuals also get comments of, “You’re so smart. This should be easy for you. Why are you being so lazy?” When these comments and judgments are given over years, it can make someone feel useless, weak, and like they are making excuses for struggling with the simplest things.

Our brain isn’t efficient in some ways. In other ways, we can be creatively gifted with ideas or specific disciplines. Sometimes we’re considered “slow” because of a learning disability or processing difference. Because of these asynchronous brain pathways, we may have difficulty learning something our typical peers can easily do. Sometimes we can learn and do something with enough repetition (like 100s of times or more) or we are being taught in ways that don’t make sense to us so these life skills remain a mystery.

Sensory Safety

With the neurodivergent brain, certain parts of the brain are stimulated more easily and intensely, and others are not. It’s why some of us feel pain when we hear something other people shrug off. It could be why certain fabrics, foods, or scents can make us feel deeply uncomfortable, and possibly in pain. Everything could be more intense, even pain. Living with so many intense feelings or physical sensations can make it difficult for us to focus on tasks or follow through with requests. The intensity of stimuli can evoke a feeling of danger around us. Our brains might be in a constant state of stress where the priority is seeking safety. And constantly being in a state of survival can lead to panic attacks, high anxiety, or fatigue from feeling stressed often.

We try to mitigate sensory overwhelm by stimming or avoiding stimulation. It’s why you see us biting our fingers, flapping hands, repeating certain words, touching things, or humming to ourselves. Playing video games can also be a way to stim or cope with a very intense outside world.

And because our brains are “inefficient” from having our neural networks connecting to many overlapping pathways, it can lead to overstimulation, confusion, or difficulty learning or doing certain life skills.

Physical Safety and Accumulated Experiences

There are many invisible conditions that add to the difficulty of accomplishing life skils. For instance, are you or your neurodivergent person clumsy? Because of a difference in proprioception in our bodies, we may live in a body that does not respond quickly to outside stimulation so we trip on things, fall, griip things too loosely or tightly, drop items often, bump our heads into cabinets, or lose balance for “no reason.” It can be a dangerous place for the extra clumsy where part of our brain power is being used to not fall or drop something when a typical person doesn’t have to use extra brain power to do the same thing.

So our reserves are being drained more quickly because our bodies aren’t calibrated with the environment. Over time, we may also implicitly or explicitly get the message that the world is an unsafe place. (All the accidents, tripping, falling, and bumping into things over the years may be another reason why we seek comfort inside and with video games) It’s safe inside!

Chronic and (Unnamed) Conditions

Being in the Neurodiversity Affirmative Therapists and other (Actually) Autistic Facebook groups for several years I’ve observed seeing stories of certain conditions paired with having divergent neurotypes. Some are:

• POTS Postural Orthostatic Tachycardic Syndrome

• Autoimmune conditions like Celiac disease, inflammatory bowel disease (IBS), psoriasis

• Chronic fatigue syndrome

• Ehler Danlos Syndrome (EDS)

• Poor Interoception — inability to sense hunger and thirst cues, how our body responds to stimulation, correlated with an inability to identify emotions and self regulate

• Learning Disabilities like Dysgraphia, Dyscalculia, Dyslexia

These conditions (and more) contribute to the complex inner workings of a person who could be trying every day to manage pain and flare-ups in addition to accomplishing daily tasks. The medical part, especially when undiagnosed or identified, can make someone feel like they have no language to explain why they’re so tired, have brain fog, feel pain, or can’t do something at the moment when other people can.

Bullying, Misunderstandings

When you’re different, you can be a target for bullying and jokes. People could think it’s lighthearted to take jabs at someone for being different, but again, years of people making comments about how you communicate, your habits, interests, and the way you dress add up. It’s not fun being the target for jokes at every social gathering or having a feeling you’re being made fun of, but you can’t really understand why either.

It’s safer and more enjoyable being home playing games. Your online friends or video game characters won’t betray you. They’ll always be there.

When you’re misunderstood often, without the language to communicate needs or your inner experiences, it can feel like being between a rock and a hard place. Sometimes or many times, people may get frustrated over your way of thinking or processing stimulation where they think you’re acting out or attention seeking instead of getting tasks done. Behind the surface of a tantrum or looking “noncompliant” could be:

• Sensory or emotional overwhelm

• Not understanding the directions

• Foundational skills other people learn without being taught, we need to be taught so we are perpetually confused and making mistakes

• Not knowing how to use a tool

• Forgetting how to do something

• Auditory processing differences

• Fatigue or pain from chronic conditions associated with neurodivergence (but not always known or diagnosed)

• Shame from being told again and again how to do something but not getting it

• A trauma response with having a hypervigilant brain and body

Shame & Mistakes

• “Stop asking again. I already told you how to do it!”

• “Put your hands down. It’s awkward when you do that.” (When we attempt to stim to self regulate)

• “That was SO EASY. How did you make these mistakes?”

• “Don’t talk about X subjects to anyone at the party, okay? I don’t want to be embarrassed.”

• “Why are you repeating what I just said? Think inside your head!”

• You’re not overwhelmed. You’re being sensitive and lazy. Just do it!”

It’s frustrating when a loved one doesn’t understand something like a homework lesson, or social etiquette. Especially when you’ve told them over and over again how to do something. The accumulated misunderstandings and comments can lead to shame. It’s difficult to move forward in life and grow when loved ones and society tell us demoralizing messages and don’t always believe our lived experiences.

Social Model of Disability (wikipedia)

The frustrating and disappointing layers of being neurodivergent include fighting institutions like education, medicine, and social spaces to honor the needs, struggles, and different lived experiences of others. Seeking accommodations, inclusion, and equity at any part of life can be overwhelming. You are already a marginalized and vulnerable person and have to provide proof of a need when it should be the other way around.

Asking vulnerable people to go through hoops to receive aid is the opposite of a nurturing society. It is another reason and system why disabled and neurodivergent people are seen as potential burdens of society.

The message perpetuates and can become our identities: If we cannot function and provide economic value to a certain degree, we are equated with being less than others, and we are seen as useless. People bully us, and the systems themselves do not support us. With this societal message and internalized identity, why would some of us want to go outside of video games?

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Using Gaming to Support Life Skills Development

If so many of us are using games to escape a world that doesn’t support or accept us, why not use these same games to develop life skills?

The REFRAME: With guidance and compassion, we can use the things our loved ones enjoy to practice different skills. Highlighting moments when you see the skill being used can help a gamer see a bigger picture of how to use their interests to grow. It is building a new lens of intention and positive play.

In the same way an athlete needs a coach, a gamer needs guidance on how to perform to their best abilities. A gamer also needs a coach or guide on how to use games to develop intangible life skills.

• Winning & Losing: This is a part of life. The hard part is getting up and doing it again, whether you win or lose. Games can offer great life lessons and sometimes we just need someone to help point them out. Just like being a good sport, the passion and joy come from the game itself and being a better player each time.

• Communication: Games can be used as topics of conversation and they can be opportunities to communicate within the games themselves. Some of us are more comfortable communicating through text or a headset, or with avatars. All these forms of communication are valid, and can help connect your gamer to community.

  • Twitch and other streaming communities also offer a form of parallel play that is comforting and less intense or demanding than in-person socialization. This is a very valid form of connection that can help people feel part of something bigger.

• Planning and Prioritization: Some games require methodical planning to complete difficult dungeons or quests. This is a great way for seeing how your gamer plans and prioritizes tasks in a safe environment. When this executive function skill is not well developed, there could be big mistakes made when unable to plan. Practicing multiple times through a game can offer an easier time to bounce back when mistakes are made.

• Problem Solving: Some games are hard. There are big maps to navigate and confusing directions to follow. Luckily there are wikis and communities to find answers. When you feel like life outside is difficult to navigate and figure out, successfully problem solving in a game can help build confidence to try problem in different areas of life. Pointing out this skill with specific moments in-game can help your gamer remember that they can solve problems!

• Helping Others, Asking for Help: In multiplayer games, there are options to help others. When socialization could be more difficult outside the game, this virtual experience offers an opportunity to practice safely communicating and seeking support from people with similar interests. In multiplayer games, many seasoned players help people. If your gamer is very good at their game, they also have the option to help noobs (people who aren’t so good). This can build a sense of purpose and fulfillment.

• Trying Again After Failure: Trying again after a failure in video games could be easier than in the outside world. Building the habit of trying again virtually can help someone feel more comfortable with taking this skill to other parts of life. When your gamer has a difficult time trying things in “real life” try introducing new types of games over time, and see how they try again with the games they like. Use these observations as a mirror to support praising or objectively noting these experiences.

• Following Directions: The differently wired brain may sometimes come with auditory processing or learning differences that make following directions difficult. To build self-esteem, gaming can offer extra practice with following directions successfully. Again, the loved one’s job is to point out these moments of success so your gamer has some evidence that they are capable of trying again.

• Channeling Difficult Emotions: Gamers have to exhibit a certain degree of self-control and focus to win games. Before playing, a person can coach or practice self-regulating exercises with their gamer so the skill can be ready to access during intense moments. Pair it with how athletes work on mastering mind and body and it can help a gamer learn very important calming skills to be a more effective player.

These skills can be identified and nurtured with your gamers. Video Games can be tools and mirrors of who we are. It depends on how we use them. There is also a real awareness of playing too much where multiple areas of life are neglected. To explore potential trauma work, it’s recommended to seek a gaming affirmative therapist who understands neurodiversity and the social model of disability.

This blog post is a compassionate response to how gaming can be a refuge from the harm done by social systems and the outside world.

References:

• Proprioception — HyperMobilityDoctor IG

• Collaborative & Proactive Solutions — Dr. Ross Greene

• Childhood Trauma: Understanding Behavioral Challenges as Survival Instincts — Dr. Mona Delahooke

• Brain Structure Changes in Autism, Explain — SpectrumNews.org

• Social Model of Disability — Wikipedia

• Learning Disabilities — Very Well Mind

• How Abuse Mars the Lives of Autistic People — SpectrumNews.Org

• What Being a Hero in Video Games Teaches Us — Organized Messes

(Neurodivergent) Acts of Protection

Disclaimer: We all protect ourselves at some point or another. We all use some of the listed behaviors to connect, share, or protect ourselves. Contexts matter. Intentions matter. Although each individual item may be used for different reasons, some positive, this blog post will focus primarily on their protective usage and the neurodivergent perspective for potentially doing so.

How to use the following information:

We have default ways of behaving, and it’s important to name them. Once we name them, we can decide whether they serve us now and if we’d like to keep these patterns. If not, we can identify (when possible) their functions and have gratitude for how they got us to this point in time. We can also be accountable by identifying how these acts can limit personal growth or something else. This takes time and safety to explore. You can explore alone, and/or with people you trust.

Many of us ask the questions “Why?” and “How"?” things came to be, and the reasons for things that we do. A simple answer for complex life experiences could be we do some things to protect ourselves. From what? It depends. We feel safe in different environments and with different people. As you read these brief descriptions, use your experiences and the themes that pop up to guide you in determining what it is you needed protection from. It could be a guess, or it could be something you know for sure.

As you examine this part of protection and safety, it can lead to self-advocacy, creating more safety, and claiming boundaries with others.

Loved Ones and Professionals Working with Neurodivergent Communities:

Please take this information as a lens of how we struggle. See this as a potential way that we are coping and communicating. Please help advocate for us by listening to the ways we may be protecting ourselves and building safety and structural changes that allow us to feel safer to exist.

Uplift our voices. Listen to our perspectives. Expand definitions of what it means to live with purpose, respect, and autonomy.

Some Acts of Protection:

Remember, some of these acts can be forms of communication, love, and play. They can also be forms of protection depending on individual circumstances.

A red and mint colored fire hydrant gushing lots of water with grass in the background, text reads “info dumping as protection”

• Info dumping: Sharing about a special interest or topic where you control the conversation.

  • Info dumping is a valid form of communication and connection. It’s sharing details, stories, and fun facts of specific interests that speak to your curiosity heart. The most interesting things that bring you joy, you want to share with others!

  • There is safety in controlling the conversation. When you are unsure of social norms and topics neurotypical people talk about, info dumping can be a way to participate in conversations.

  • You don’t have to deal with the consequences of feeling awkward, saying the “wrong thing” or freezing because you don’t know how to respond.

  • Info dumping can protect you from feeling rejected and embarrassed when you don’t know what to say in social exchanges.

orange kitten and puppy sleeping, text reads “not taking action as protection”

• Not Taking Action, Staying Still aka Self Sabotage

  • Because we learn and do things divergently, we can have a history of being seen as perpetual failures. We’re “doing it wrong” whatever “IT” may be in the eyes of others.

  • We actually learn and fill many “cups” of knowledge over time, so the results are more in-depth and complex when given the time to organically learn and apply knowledge. Our projects can be novel and creative when we have the right time and freedom.

  • And because of our inability to do certain tasks or skills like other people, we may have learned creative ways to accomplish things that work for us OR NOT. Sometimes we don’t have the skills to get something done.

  • Unfortunately, life and society are not supportive of this way of existing. To protect ourselves from being seen as failures and not “sticking” to things (even though it all adds to the bigger picture), we stop doing things.

  • We avoid the mockery, disappointing others over and over again, feeling the pain of not being perfect (because we’re so smart or have so much potential)

  • We could also enjoy thinking as a hobby instead of creating any “product”. Typical people could consider this a waste of time or potential. To again, bypass others’ disappointment or frustrations with us, we could hide our thoughts and appear like we “aren’t doing anything.”

A yellow boot on a wheel of a bright blue care, text reads “not taking action as protection”

• Another component of not taking action is being comfortable with the stagnation you’re in. This is universal.

• As we think about life cycles and wanting to change, we can sabotage or prolong things because it’s super comfortable knowing what you know, even if it’s not the best for you.

• Leaping into action and trying something new, even if it’s good for you, is SCARY.

• So instead of moving toward change over time, we could lock ourselves in places that keep us in an okay place with known consequences.

• The thing is, when we’re here long enough and have access to tools, we CAN unlock ourselves and move away from stagnation.

• When you’re young or vulnerable, you do NOT have access to tools and freedom to get away from certain situations.

• When you are unsafe, it makes sense to wait before working on change. Some people see you as the scapegoat or black sheep. If you change in unsafe moments, if can cause problems in the systems you belong to.

• To protect yourself from retaliation or other people not ready to see and believe your change, staying the same is a safer option.

Cropped image of a person wearing a business suit, holding a pen and book. Judge’s gavel and clip board blurred from field of view on desk. Text reads “correcting and judging others as protection”

• Correcting & Judging Others

  • This could be a quirk and want for accuracy.

  • It could also be a form of protection in a world where people are constantly reminding you what you’re doing wrong.

  • We could be seen as lazy, weird, awkward, socially inept, attention-seeking, dramatic, childlike, stubborn, making excuses, etc. People may not always directly say it, but we could feel it, and we can pick up (sometimes) on how other people think about us. And it can be draining and sad.

  • In order to bypass the focus on yourself and what’s “wrong” with you, you may adopt correcting others and judging them first.

  • We may be seen as judgemental and push people away. It further protects us from painful judgments we want to avoid.

A small wooden structure isolated in the mountains, background has fog and large pine trees. Text reads “withdrawing as protection”

Withdrawal

• A possible result of judging others and pushing them away is being seen as someone who withdraws.

• As most of us are extremely sensitive to stimulation of different kinds, our experiences could be constantly minimized and ridiculed. (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria)

• On top of being sensitive, our executive function profiles make certain life tasks difficult when they are easy for others. And that also can be met with mockery, frustration, eye-rolls, and being told we are lazy and making excuses. If only we “tried harder” we could get our lives together like other “functional” people.

• We could also deal with the cycles of grief our loved ones have of us not meeting our potential or mourning the loss of a “normal child” and it hurts to hear/see/feel that pain.

• As we feel stimulation deeply, so do the emotions we experience. They can consume us where we’d rather avoid such intense pain for disappointing the expectations and hopes of others.

A restaurant server with wavy brown hair in a ponytail smiling at a customer. Text reads “people pleasing as protection”

• People Pleasing

• Some of us seek connection and sensory feedback through social interactions, whether they are completely healthy or not.

• People pleasing can be that safe way to engage with others, especially authority figures, to avoid possible danger, being ridiculed, or feeling like a disappointment.

• This can come in the form of masking, suppressing our stims, not sharing what we value or want to talk about and just following scripts.

• There is nothing wrong with wanting to please others, however, if it comes at the cost of losing who you are and not being able to have your needs met, it is problematic.

• When it is unsafe to be yourself, it is understandable wanting to people please and become small yourself.

A tan and white chihuahua with puffy light blue pom poms on its ears. Text reads “entertaining as protection”

• Entertaining

• Another way we can bypass pain, rejection, or feeling misunderstood is to become an entertainer.

• You can make people laugh, make fun of your own quirks, and have a layer of protection from people reminding you of your “flaws and unmet potential”.

• Some gifted people hide their giftedness by not sharing themselves entirely. They may realize being funny is a safe way to be accepted. We may self-deprecate or focus more on our struggles to make other people feel better about themselves.

• Our gifts may indirectly make people feel inferior or angry, even frustrated and confused because of our asynchronous development.

• If we have many struggles in daily living that frustrate others, being an entertainer can also be a way for us to reduce being seen as a burden.

A person holding a bouquet of white flowers and baby’s breath flowers. The flowers are covering their face. Text reads “situational mutism as protection”

Situational Mutism

• We could be told to shut up when we infodump in our attempts to connect and share that we silence ourselves or develop situational mutism to protect ourselves from being silenced.

• Some of the responses I’ve had when sharing about important topics like social justice, politics, the news, death:

  • “No one wants to talk about that stuff.”

  • “Stop. You’re making it awkward.”

  • “No one else is interested in this topic but you.”

  • “Do you see anyone responding? They’re just being polite. Stop talking about it.”

  • “Are you done with your soapbox?”

• We can also be gaslit about our emotions and sensory experiences where we get quiet and decide not to share our worlds anymore. I tried sharing about my inflammation and joint pain with someone important and they yelled at me saying I was “making it up.” I stopped talking to them about my pain and anything of value after that.

• Somehow when we try to explain our pain, sensory, and learning differences to be UNDERSTOOD, we are met with anger, rejection, disbelief, and told we are making excuses for not trying hard enough.

• To protect ourselves from all of these very bad, potentially traumatic exchanges, we could develop situational mutism. It is unsafe to speak your truth.

A toddler in a dark grey dress and red Tshirt crying. Text reads “shutting down as protection”

• Shutting Down

  • Our bodies have cues that tell us different things. Shutting down is showing us a limit of some sort.

  • It can be a cognitive limit, sensory limit, emotional limit, skill limit, physical limit, or a mix.

  • The frustrating part about being neurodivergent is our brains and bodies are on the inside, and we don’t always know what’s going on, either. The neural wiring and extra white matter make stimulation affect us in very unique, intense ways.

  • Some of the different wiring results in pain from stimulation neurotypical people don’t experience. And when it’s not a typical experience, we or others around us wouldn’t know it’s something to ask about or share.

  • The bombardment we face from having to mask or minimize stimming can also add to shutting down, meltdowns, and outbursts. Instead of being able to self-regulate by stimming, we have to stop because it embarrasses others, or makes them angry that we’re doing something “inappropriate or distracting”.

  • We tried communicating in ways that showed our struggles, but they were misread and attributed to shame, laziness, and noncompliance. We determined it was safer to hide our pain until it shuts us down.

  • If this happens enough times, we may be in a prolonged state of shutdown, or it takes so much longer for us to move from shutdown to safety. (Therapy is very important here, healing with compassion, support and affirmative help and systemic change helps here.)

In an ableist society that continues to value people based on their ability to produce, differently wired people and disabled people will be told their lives matter less. We are told our existence is a burden and a drain on resources. There is much pain from society and the systems that fail us.

Some of these acts may be replaced with kinder and compassionate alternatives. For some of us, we will continue using these acts as signs of needing protection. Not everyone deserves to see all parts of you. Not everyone is safe to unmask around.

Until society supports and accepts differences with compassion, there will continue to be the need to protect ourselves, to be hypervigilant, and to question whether the next person or system we go into is safe or not.

Our identities can become highly fragmented or limited when we choose different personas to protect ourselves. The many reasons and contexts for protecting ourselves matter. As we slowly identify needs for protection and expand our self-understanding, we can move from living in survival mode to one of curiosity and possibility.

Protecting yourself is one part of you. When there is safety to explore, there can be a cultivated sense of inner peace, acceptance, or relief to take the masks off. You can live for yourself and your comfort, however that is defined. Bit by bit, you can reclaim and/or redefine what makes you YOU.

Words from Jamila Mahfudh, Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist

*coming soon*

Until this part is added, feel free to learn more about Jamila at JamilaTherapy.com

A Neurodivergent Gift & Curse: Over-Researching and Over Preparing

Researching and Preparing as Gifts

These two acts can be a special interest, talent, and gift others pair with us.

When thinking about hobbies, areas of study, and anything we may be fascinated with, there tends to be an element of research and preparation that neurodivergent minds gravitate towards.

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• It is a potential love language to share details and rabbit holes of research with those around us, or those we trust.

  • When comfortable, we can share stories, fun facts, and worlds of information about what we love with people we want to share that same love and fascination with. Is it a typical conversation? No, not really. It’s still a way to connect.

• We can help and inspire others to think of things they don’t usually think about. This could come out in the way of, “I never thought of that.” or “Your conversation made me think of this.”

• We can help reframe perspective and share the joy of learning, too. This can sometimes come out in the way of, “I don’t completely follow what you’re saying, but seeing you happy sharing makes me happy.” (This is the wish when we infodump)

• Learning about the history, contexts, and WHY of a concept could be as important or more important than building anything.

• We can impress people with our abilities to scour the internet, observe, or gather information through conversations. Putting the pieces together to form a story can be something we become skilled at. It can be a form of play to build mental maps of things we’re interested in.

• In addition to building mental maps of the things we’re curious about, we can even start accumulating things in preparation for something related to the topic, things like hobbies or areas of study.

• This experiential (and sometimes expensive or time-consuming) act of preparing, can make us very knowledgeable about the hows and whys within.

• This ability to map out information can make us go-to consultants for people needing insights on something “missing” or a bird’s eye perspective on a concern. We can also help identify patterns that people share, and what seems to be out of place for potential problem solving.

Example: Taking up watercolor or drawing comics as a new hobby.

In order to research and prepare for this new endeavor, you might do the following:

• Watch 150 YouTube videos on making art

• Follow 200 IG and TikTok art influencers

• Enroll in 3 art master classes online

• Spend $400 on art supplies, including different types of paper, inks, markers, brushes, and paints

• Order 10 books on the craft and nature of being an artist

• Make an artist setup with inspiration to create

• Pin thousands of images to your Pinterest board for inspiration and references

• Go to the museum, galleries, several art walks, and zine fests

• Add your thing here. We know there’s more lol (aka the ADHD tax)

You may start doodling and creating some artwork, but after a while…

You stopped creating. The hyper fixation is gone. You’re feeling unsure if this is worth it. There’s doubt and impending abandonment of the art supplies.

“It’s too difficult to keep this up. I feel like a failure. I might as well stop.”

So what happens? A few things. There are hibernations and abandoned projects, AND there’s this cyclical process of continuing to research and prepare. Why? Because there’s this underlying compulsion for perfection that sabotages any ability to try unless it’s “just right.”

Researching and Preparing as Curses

The shadow of being a thinker can show up in missing out on lived experiences that add nuance to the theory we’re so good at developing. There is safety in living in the realm of ideas and possibility. Here, you don’t get to disappoint yourself or others in the tangible world. In theory, you have a sense of control over the information and variables to look out for.

Pink background. Thought bubbles with sad faces and doll icon. Over-researching and over-planning as curses.

Even when rationalizing and having thought experiments can be such a joy, inspiration, and type of play, there are extreme ways of being that can make it difficult for us to be in a sense of flow in life.

Life is not all thinking and philosophizing. It’s also not all chasing adventures, eating all the things, and running marathons. Life is both.

• When our default is to think and analyze, we’re very attuned to our heads and the planning parts of life.

• This correlates with not being as attuned with our bodies, physical needs, or responses to the environment.

  • Thinking all the time can indirectly stop us from listening to hunger and thirst cues. Ever forget to eat or drink water?

  • We also may be more clumsy and bump into things, and get lost, EVEN THOUGH it’s supposedly a familiar environment or route. Doesn’t matter, bumped my head anyways.

• Living so long in our heads can make it uncomfortable to constantly practice doing things to learn about our bodies, or practicing something as a beginner.

  • Because we’ve mastered the art of thinking, we can be more comfortable staying a master here.

  • People may have ridiculed us for not doing things easily. We may be judged or mocked for having a difficult time doing things other people do without needing a road map. There could be shame or embarrassment for having to learn things a “child should already know.”

  • We can also be met with disbelief—people say we’re exaggerating hardships or reject our experiences. :(

  People can’t reject or judge you inside your head. There are potential internal and external obstacles to learning how to live in our bodies and the outside world.

Light purple background. World emoji smiling with pink hearts. Living in a world of and.

Cultivating Compassion & Redefining Who You Are

The larger culture has implicit messages of how to be, including how much thinking and doing a person “should” do. We can internalize these messages and be treated like there’s something wrong with us because we act differently. The frustrating and painful thing is the archetypes and stories of the thinker, planner, and philosopher are used in entertainment often. The fictional thinker is celebrated and mysterious, a muse to inspire. But real-life thinkers and rationals are mistreated for living our authentic paths, or paths we’ve created to protect ourselves from judgment and rejection.

• Living in a world of AND can help us become self-compassionate with our journeys of self-discovery and growth

  • We don’t have to be perfect, AND we started off with certain messages of needing to be experts at the things we do.

  • Life is an adventure, AND we can try things for the sake of having experiences NOT mastery.

  • Accepting that your default is to be cerebral AND you can practice listening to your body more can help build momentum toward changes that YOU want to do.

  • You can pick what works for you now AND get rid of harmful practices that are unkind, sabotaging, or inauthentic.

  • You have a gift for thinking AND can redefine how you want to do things to have more experiences in life.

  • You can acknowledge that change is difficult AND figure out smaller and safe ways to try new things without feeling overwhelmed by perfection.

  • You can practice affirmations and saying kind things to yourself (even when you think it’s cheesy), AND have faith that being kind to yourself will help with going on another cycle of change.

  • You can observe the “doers” and see what you’d like to try. Be curious about how you can do something like them, but on your terms.

light yellow background. Pink brain with glasses and question marks smiling. Caption states: what are some of the things the doers do that I’d like to try on my own terms?

Leading with Curiosity

Leading with Curiosity. A light green square with a dark brown bear. The bear has a thought cloud with a question mark. There are fruits beside text. The text is describe din detail below.

• What are the strengths people think I have?

  • It’s something we forget when we are overwhelmed and feel hopeless. We can forget the people who know us the most can also be the ones who can help uplift us.

  • Find and seek out people who can remind you what your strengths are.

  • Ask for 3 to 5 strengths, and if they can be specific with when they saw you with the strength.

• Is there a skill I want to try that people I admire do well?

  • Follow your heroes and fandoms!

  • What’s something you admire about their ability to do something?

  • If you can’t identify it, follow their journeys. Try and map out the moments that stand out most to you.

• How can I modify the new skill to make it MINE?

  • After we have heroes and references for skills and the possibility for change, the next step is to think about how to make it yours.

  • It can be modified with smaller steps, using different tools.

  • The skill itself can change for a different part of your life, or concern.

• Am I open to trying something new as an EXPERIMENT?

  • It’s easier to try stuff when it’s an experiment. We’re just gathering data, something you’re naturally inclined to do anyways. This time the data is about you and using different skills.

  • Experiments are safe because there’s no commitment to stick to it forever. You have to pause after a period of time to analyze the results.

• How will I know a new skill is working?

  • This could be an inner feeling. Something FEELS different.

  • It could also be something tangible and measurable. What small measurements and things can you identify to see that change happened?

  • Was it a change that you like and want to keep? Or is it a change that you’re not sure about? Take note of it.

  • Journaling or documenting your responses to these small changes can help you see if you want to continue with the new skills.
    

Change is about acceptance, practice, and being kind to yourself.

Acceptance includes seeing your strengths in a world that is forever trying to change you into something you’re not. Practice includes the smallest steps with REST across the lifespan. Being kind to yourself includes seeing yourself as worthy along each part of your life, whether you "accomplish” tasks or not. You’re wonderfully you because you exist~!

Mapping Out Efficient Systems as a Neurodivergent Thinker (Heroic Change Processes)

Welcome Fellow Divergent Thinker or Loved One of a Divergent Thinker~

Thinking about change systems and cycles is a special interest of mine, and I’ve wanted to find a way to start sharing the complex map of how change can and may happen for the differently wired individual. You may start at different places of this reference, and that’s awesome. It’s awesome that you have insight into where you’re at and the data points mentioned.

INSIGHT helps with moving from the abstract to the concrete. As rationals and people comfortable with staying in the realms of thoughts and concepts, we need something else to transition out of our heads and into the existing world. Please consume this information at your leisure. Take nibbles of it and come back after letting it process. Take notes on what speaks to you, and what doesn’t make sense or work. It’s all important in figuring out what works for you.

This reference can be applied to different areas of life: relationships, personal development, self-care, chores, academic skills, and the creative process. Many times we seek to understand the WHY before things suddenly click into action and change. I hope some of these notes help with your conceptualization of change and being more compassionate with your unique process of transformation.

Change Processes — Mapping the Journey

Visualize your history with change, important dates, people, and any patterns that may come from tracking the information. A timeline can help.

Gather Data

We’re gonna need information to assess where you’re coming from, identify patterns, and establish a reference point. When thinking about change in a specific area of life, how long has it been like this? Suggestions include:

• A visual timeline, summary, list, or description of your life related to this.

  • This process helps with executive function skills: taking information from longterm memory and sorting it chronologically or thematically

• TALK IT OUT. Many times we need to think out loud. As we share externally, ideas sort and can build into a story with context and background. Many times neurodivergent people are shut down or dismissed so our stories are not heard in their entirety.

• Ask people you trust to describe your relationship with this change, and any patterns they’ve noticed. Ask them to be neutral and include objective contexts to help understand what they see.

• A recent snapshot helps, too. Milestones in life can be catalysts for difficult transitions. It’s normal, and it can be an opportunity to experiment with different strategies.

Perform Experiments

Treat change like an experiment. We don’t know what will work unless we try and gather data to analyze the patterns! — Boonie Sripom

When trying to figure out how to change, we need experiential data to determine if something works or not. To the frustration of those around us, and ourselves, this process can look very chaotic. Sometimes it looks like we are going in circles. If we continue doing the same things but they are not beneficial, it’s important to pause and examine what’s happening.

Even adopting beneficial changes can take practice and experimentation. You’ve spent a lifetime or X amount of time doing things a certain way. It makes sense that it will take time to adjust to doing something new. You’re building new neural networks and slowly figuring out if it’s something you want to keep doing.

• Pick something to try.

• Give it a timeframe that YOU want to do.

• Rest and analyze.

Please note some things we do could help us grow in different parts of life. Experiments allow us to try things we did in the past, or heard of when we weren’t ready. When you feel ready, give something a try and gather that data!

Ask trusted loved ones to share observations of you as well. This helps with perspective building in the present.

(If you don’t trust anyone, document your journey privately. I used my YouTube videos to think out loud as I went through cycles of change. When I look back, I can see how much I’ve grown and the resiliency I cultivated.)

Rest

I am using plant and exercise metaphors to help explain why rest is important.

PLANT METAPHOR: Seedlings only need a little water and food at a time. Overwatering isn't going to make them grow any faster. It's important to wait and let the plants grow at their own pace. The same is true for you and change processes. It's good to rest in between growth periods.

Plant Metaphor: Plants only need a certain range of water and food. If you give too much water or too much food, the plant could die, get root rot, or stop taking in the extra nutrition. There is a limit a plant can take, and the same goes for you. Give yourself time to absorb the new habit and change.

Many people can be impatient with change and want to go go go because they’re ready. Being ready is important! Doing the work and accepting the process of change is very important. Your mind, body, and spirit are all adapting to a new way of being. Give yourself time to develop congruence within these parts of you.

Exercise Metaphor: Power athletes tear muscles working out and participating in their sport. There is a huge strain on the body when performing and exercising. In order to grow healthily and prevent harm to the body, athletes rest in between workouts, games, and meets. If an athlete pushes their body when they should be resting, there could be irreparable damage. Conscientious working out also means intentional rest and healing to become stronger and build resiliency.

Analyze Data

While resting and after resting, it’s time to analyze. What happened? Were you able to implement changes? Even a little bit? What were the specific contexts for small successes? What were specific contexts for hardships? Did things stay the same?

• YOU HAVE TO ANALYZE IT. Looking at yourself from a bird’s eye view AFTER performing tasks gives us access to metacognition, another executive function skill.

• We are good at analyzing ourselves. I am certain almost every neurodivergent person has analyzed their situations and some patterns of existence. This time, we are analyzing with a new perspective. This new perspective is in terms of change cycles and self-compassion.

• If we want to change, we must identify what happened. Consider it another short story about you. Step by step, what happened? If we don’t know what happened, we may repeat the cycle.

• Think of one variable at a time to see what contributes to repeated cycles.

Overanalyzing OOPS

Ways to pause overanalyzing. Make a playlist to overthink and stop when the music ends. Hold on to ice cubes for 5-10 seconds, look up DBT strategies. Write your thoughts on paper and see if it helps. Talk to your overthinker archetype and pause. Body double or accountability partners can also help~

• There are limits to this superpower! Sometimes, it’s okay NOT to analyze things. If you know your patterns, you know what doesn’t work. We may need a little nudge from being cerebral to practical.

• This is a burden and life skill many neurodivergent people face. We can analyze all day if we could. The leap we need is to DO things. And this is learning to be okay with pausing analysis.

• Does this mean you have to change who you are? NO, it doesn’t. Your ability to analyze and think critically is and always will be a gift. The next step to implementing change is to pause mental energy for a little bit in the physical and external world.

• Suggestion: Try giving yourself timers for analyzing like episodes of a show, podcast, or a playlist that helps you think. After that, time to stop.

  • I also think about (not visualize because I have aphantasia) using a clicker or button to “turn my analyzer archetype off”. I talk to them and give them a break.

  • There was a post in a Stardew Valley group to play the soundtrack while doing chores, and it HELPED. Find songs that remind you of productivity or play. Give it a try and see if it helps you!

  • Body Doubling or Accountability Partners can help move to action

  • Remember you have a body, not just a head. Nurture your body and the senses by doing something sensory for you!

If you want to find different lenses of analysis, consider the following:

• What is the COMPASSIONATE goal?

  • What does it look and feel like when you inch closer to this goal?

  • Which values are you honoring with this goal?

    • Looking up values helps name things. Looking up personality types and correlating values may also help normalize/validate your inner experiences when others around you may not understand.

  • Ask people to help with specifics. Look for examples of how other neurodivergent people named their goals.

  • Describe it as much as you can.

  • Examples:

    • Chunk a block of time to read and respond to X emails so I don’t feel rushed to complete things at a specific time.

    • Find accountability buddies to clean, do (home)work, or study.

    • Wash a couple of cups or plates, not all.

    • Find a spot to put my backpack and assignment checklist every night to feel less stressed in the morning.

    • Eat something so I have the energy to do stuff, and crash less often.

    • Drink water so I don’t feel dehydrated and tired.

    • Find cleaning and self-care hacks that work for me and my energy profile.

    • Build a routine to go to the store so I can feel more independent.

    • Learn how to ask for help in class so I can get my learning needs met and feel understood.

    • Practice being kinder to myself when I make mistakes or try something new so I can build resilience and try again.

• OBSTACLES

  • What is blocking you from meeting an objective?

  • I hear often people say it’s a “lack of motivation” and sometimes it may be the case. Other times, it could be:

  • sensory overwhelm, not seeing small steps to meet a larger goal, inefficient use of space, difficulty with transitions, not understanding why something is important to do, or a general lack of practice because the neurodivergent brain needs lots of practice to learn some things neurotypical people do more easily.

  • Medical or other professional consults: Sometimes we may have underlying medical conditions that contribute to fatigue, allergies, learning differences, or other conditions that make it more difficult to process information, stimulation, or complete tasks. It’s important to find neurodiversity-affirming and competent professionals to share your experiences to see how they can educate and support you.

  • Professionals that may help: Occupational Therapist who are competent in supporting interoception, not just fine motor skills, Doctors who specialize in sleep, chronic pain or fatigue, inflammation, trauma-informed yoga, psychologists who specialize in learning differences and assessments.

  • Systemic barriers, poverty, safety to change, abuse, and traumas can be huge barriers to change. If these are part of your story, therapy can help. Finding advocates, foundations, and support groups can help. Even starting with lurking in online groups related to what you’ve experienced may also help. Find ones with admins who protect and empower members, with rules for safety and engagement.

    • Psychology grad programs and colleges with counseling centers may have spots for low-cost or probono therapy services. You can also call 211 for behavioral health resources and 988 for mental health crises. Domestic Violence shelters also have trainings for learning about the abuse cycle, offer advocacy, and PEP programs (personal empowerment program).

    • With police reports, you can get financial support as a victim of crime, including abuse. https://victimsofcrime.org/

• MESSAGES WITH CHANGE

  • What are you telling yourself about change?

  • Are there influential people (in)directly shaping your abilities to change?

    • Use your fandoms to inspire change processes!

    • Which characters or story arcs resonated with you? Why?

    • Describe their process of transformation and see how it could be related to your journey, too!

  • Do you think change is possible?

  • Is there evidence to support your ability to change? Even small things?

  • What was your relationship with this specific change 10 years ago? 5 years ago?

    • How did you see this change back then?

    • What types of support or strengths do you have now?

  • How do people in your past see you versus how people you’ve recently met see you? What are the overlaps and differences?

Reframe: You are one with nature and just like nature, have a natural flow and cycles of change. We are not expected to bloom year round. We are not expected to bear fruit all the time. We grow, we take in nutrition, sunshine, and water. We are appreciated simply because we brilliantly exist. Different flowers are lovely and do not compete with one another. Some take longer to blossom and have large buds. Some have small, consistent flowering. Some do not flower at all, and are as needed in this world as any other plant.

Different paths and tools to reach similar goals. There are many ways to reach goals, AND to rest in this lifetime.

• SMALLER STEPS or DIFFERENT STEPS

  • Sometimes when we’re ready to make big changes, we get too eager and take big leaps when taking smaller steps could make lasting change.

  • If and when you’re ready to leap, do it! If not, slow and steady is an option, too.

  • The smaller steps for us usually comes in the form of creative problem solving and learning what our executive function skills profiles are. Learning about how your brain and body manage energy, planning, emotional overwhelm, stress, and processing stimulation will help empower you to be efficient in your own way, AND unlearn harmful neurotypical expectations that do not work for us.

  • Different steps for us could be binging it through OR chunking you energy to focus on a specific task. It could also mean trying small steps over time because we need to rest more often.

Using the Right Tools or Being Creative

• Referencing the image with mountains, there are many ways to reach the top. Some people have fancy hiking gear, access to a helicopter. Others don’t even know how to climb yet. There’s a range of skills and tools we must learn to use across the lifespan.

• If we have mentorship and practice, it makes it safer to go on our own journeys. Climbing a mountain on your own isn’t the safest thing to do.

• We can be creative by thinking about heroes and how they’ve achieved goals. Use their knowledge, ask for guidance, and learn how to use important tools . You can do this through myth and stories, or seek out mentorship from real life heroes.

• Follow in the footsteps of others until you are ready to go on your own. To be affirmative and compassionate to yourself, it can help to find stories of people with similar lived experiences. How did they overcome and thrive?

The Pendulum of Change — moving from extremes of black and white to fluidity and flow in grayness

• PENDULUM OF CHANGE — moving from Black and White to Grayness and Fluidity

  Change involves moving from one reference point to another. In the beginning, it can be extreme, opposing ways of being that appears chaotic. This is a pattern that happens often when we are learning how to move from something that didn’t work to another preference. This is one cycle or attempt with change. When you pause to reflect, you can identify what worked in the new path, and what you’d like to keep in your older path. When you’re ready, you can try another change cycle where you “swing on the pendulum.” Each time you intentionally swing, you learn more about adapting, how long you can maintain the change, what works, and what doesn’t.

  • Where are you in this process of swinging and integrating grayness? Is your world starting off in black and white?

  • As stated earlier, it’s important to rest in between cycles. People on the outside (or you) may be impatient with changing “faster.” Remember, this is your life, and if you want to try another cycle of change, it is up to you. Considering the opinions of others is important, and it’s important to honor what YOU feel is right.

• YOUR STRENGTHS

  • What are you really good at?

    When you’re different, there are implicit and explicit messages you receive that different = wrong. People baby you, people can say you’re not “living up to your potential” or that you’re a burden. These messages hurt, and they’re really difficult to unlearn. A way to start unlearning these harmful messages is to remind yourself what you’re good at.

    • StrengthsFinder Alternative Test https://high5test.com/strengthsfinder-free/

    • VIA Character Strengths https://www.viacharacter.org/

    • Enneagram Typology System https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/

    • How have you survived so far? We compensate with our strengths.

    Even if it feels like you don’t always know what you’re doing, you made it this far. What and who helped you make it to this point?

    • What skills are you using to compensate for not knowing certain things? <<<This is being creative, flexible, and adaptive.

• LEVEL UP SKILLS

  • Do you know which skills you need to complete this task?

    • Many times the gap from idea to action is closed when someone shows us how to do something step by step. Even if it’s something “easy” like washing clothes and putting away laundry, if we are shown enough times, our brains can map out systems that work for us.

    • If we are scaffolded steps to try tasks, this can help very much. Again, the “easy” things neurotypical people can do are not always easy for us. When your neural wiring is interconnected, it leads to overwhelm quickly, and jumbled information processing that can confuse us during simple tasks.

    • Transitions to different tasks can be draining. Why? Our brains and bodies take in more heightened stimulation which means it can activate more of our neural networks and their correlated bodily responses. Take note of your responses to transitions, and how to advocate for your needs.

  • How can you find out?

    • Online neurodivergent groups are hubs for fellow divergent thinkers to share inquiry, struggles, and successes to navigate the neurotypical world. It helps, even if only to lurk. Hacks are shared, group compassion is cultivated.

    • These groups are important because sometimes “you don’t know what you don’t know.” These groups would have benefitted younger me in terms of hygiene, dating, and finding work. I had no idea these parts of life were not mapped out because I didn’t think about them.

    • A lot of the struggles I experienced felt normal to me, so they were not questioned. Only when reading posts or hearing conversations that chronic fatigue, sensory overwhelm, or misunderstanding social cues, and situational mutism were “a thing” pieces started clicking together.

    • Facebook Group: Neurodivergent Cleaning Crew

  • Maybe it’s a goal you don’t have to do, but were told to do… People pleasing could be a way for us to survive for a while. As you create and find safety to do things for yourself, what are the goals YOU want to pursue?

  • “Good enough” is a great lens for doing a lot of things in life. We were not born to be perfect beings. None of us are perfect, so why give ourselves impossible standards that sabotage how we feel about ourselves?

The Paradox of Change

• CHALLENGE Internalized Ableism or the Greater Culture’s Expectations of Worth and Success

  • You are NOT the tasks you complete. This culture focuses on productivity as a measure for respecting someone. It creates a workaholic, toxic culture that drives people to work until they can no longer enjoy their lives. You are worthy just because you exist.

  • NONLINEAR approaches matter. (see neurodiveregnt learning)

  • SENSORY needs matter — it can be the difference between being understood and being forced to mask.

  • Healing trauma matters

  • GOOD ENOUGH will save you from torment and unnecessary heartache. Sometimes we have to leave it as it is or do what we can. And that’s important.

  • Leave a pile for chaos. We all have that chair, corner, or pile. We are human.

  • Self compassion, not perfection — we’ve made ourselves small for a long time, or been seen as a “problem” and believed it. Self compassion will lead to healthy changes.

  • You are not a problem. Society is broken.

  • We most likely experience invisible conditions that people minimize or don’t understand. As more content creators with lived experience share their stories, I hope it helps you feel seen and validated in your truths. I hope it helps you honor your needs and voice.

The PARADOX OF CHANGE: When you feel accepted, you thrive. Cultivate that self compassion. Find your communities. Dismantle the toxic and harmful messages that there is only one way of being a worthy human being. There are countless ways of being worthy. YOU are worthy as you are, all parts.

Our divergent brains have lots of buckets for data, memories, and ideas. The buckets are inefficiently being filled every time we learn or do something. This leads to creative exploration & novelty, but also, longer times/repeated practice to do or learn some things.

• Neurodivergent Learning

  • Filling up different thematic cups and data points to learn in a beautifully scattered way

  • It can appear slow, inefficient, or random with how we connect information.

  • Another way to see our way of thinking is novel, creative, and curious.

  • We may need extra practice and different explanations for WHY something needs to be done.

  • We may need patience to try in many different ways to put it all together.

• You want to change your habits?

  • OKAY, what ARE your habits?

  • When do you slip up?

  • Are you on autopilot? (OR are you resting in between intense stages of your change process?)

• OR is your system fine, and it’s people treating you like sh*t?

  • Being misunderstood can make us think we’re doing something wrong

• So, before changing a system, see if it’s actually shame or guilt from the outside

  • Neurodiversity affirmative therapy, coaching, mentorship, and healthy relationships can help with undoing shame

You are a person constantly becoming who you’ve always been.

SHIFT PERSPECTIVE: You are your present self, honoring past values, needs, and wants. You are accruing experience and leveling up certain skills to change authentically. Less masking. More you. You are experimenting possibility, analyzing data and resting as needed. And when the time is right:

DO IT AGAIN.

• It might have been the wrong time for the right system. Maybe this time you are better equipped to try this system.

• You learned some things the first times around.

  • What wisdoms and strength do you want to take with you on this next cycle?

  • What do you want to leave in the past, with gratitude?

  • Saboteurs and self sabotage: Change is uncomfortable, even good change. We or people around us, may sabotage growth. Please look out for and protect yourself from sabotage. (Shadow work & archetypal work, a beautifully separate topic in itself)

    • Identify Saboteurs and Energy Vampires, real people and situations that attempt to keep you down.

    • Find ways to avoid them as you begin your cycles of change. Safety to experiment, explore identity, and gather data is of utmost importance.

      As you venture on more adventures as your own hero, remember to rest. Just like nature and the plants around us, there will be seasons for dormancy, change, and blooming.

Recommendations:

• Wired to Create - Scott Barry Kaufman

• The Neurodivergent Friendly Workbook of DBT Skills - Sonny Jane Wise

• Unmasking Autism - Devon Price

• We’re Not Broken: Changing the Autism Conversation - Eric Garcia

• Super Better: The Power of Living Gamefully - Jane McGonigal

Resources:

• Neurodivergent Therapists Directory

• Autistic Self Advocacy Network

• ADDitude Magazine

Teaching vs. Telling - Executive Function Skills Scaffolding

To help children strengthen executive function skills, it's important to scaffold opportunities to figure out problems. Experiential problem solving with your support builds analytical skills. This is a foundation for self esteem and resiliency.

Hardships happen. When you've practiced solving problems with the safety of a grown up, it makes it easier to try again without feeling like a failure. Telling kids what to do takes away from learning how to identify problems and solutions.

Caveat to scaffolding problem solving skills is times of urgency and danger. There's no time to think when safety is a concern and adults should step in and make decisions for children.

EF Skills Supportive Strategy - Teaching vs Telling:

1) What do you think the problem is?

Seeing a child's perspective can help us focus on what a child needs. What we think is the problem could be very different from what a child thinks is the problem.

2) What should we do first?

This helps map out how a child sees a problem. They might have missing information and think of one part of the story. They might jump ahead and miss a lot of steps. This is good information! It helps us give a child the missing parts.

3) Show/Teach me what you're working on.

A child learns a lot by teaching and explaining to someone else. This helps with planning thoughts before sharing a series of steps with others, and practicing how to explain cause and effect.

️4) Let's see what other people have done.

This is a nonjudging way to expose your child to more ways to do something. Watching others is a powerful way to learn. Kids can pick what feels right and try them.

️5) Is there anything that we're missing?

Helps with planning and prioritization, metacognition (seeing the big picture), and recalling information related to the problem and information available.

️6) Let's take a break to reset our brain and body.

Hypervigilant brains and bodies panic and act impulsively. Help support clear problem solving through calm moments and patience. It can wait, AND we can do it bit by bit.

️7) Do you want me to do anything? How can I help?

Asking for help is a life skill. Having trusted adults build this bridge for autonomy and self advocacy is something all children need for school, work, and relationships.

Inspired by TEFOS2022 conversation of Seth Perler and Leslie Josel

The power of Group Play in Video Games: RPGs and Protecting Others

Every week I get to fight creepers with young gamers in Minecraft and other games. The funny thing is that I suck at most of them, but kids want to play with me anyway. My niece and nephew (or clients) become the masters of their world where a trusted adult can see who they can be and what they wish to explore. By observing and accepting the characters and roles my gamers choose, I am able to better understand their strengths and the importance of these roles in their lives.

I will write in terms of working with children, but this applies to people of all ages. There is no age limit to play and explore through play.

Reframing Video Games, Play, and Archetypal Exploration:

Play is the natural language of children. It is a universal way to connect, practice life skills, and attempt at trying to make sense of the world around us. We see children wanting to dress up like their parents, repeat behaviors and phrases they heard, and pretend to be someone or something they saw in a storybook, film, or in the outside world. Through these repetitions, we can incorporate a sense of understanding, perspective, and possibility into our lives. Preschool teachers, parents, play therapists, and educators are some among many who can use play and the language of play to facilitate growth, but also, to nonverbally understand the inner workings, strengths, and hopes of children. There are many benefits to playing, and video games are one way to channel and experiment in a world that continues to feel overwhelming, curious, and chaotic.

Screenshot, Fortnite, property of Epic Games

Discovering New Curiosities & Adventures With Video Games

In the image above, I am playing Fortnite with my niece and nephew. We are running around the map looking for the dinosaur creatures named Klombos. There are several Klombos scattered around the map, and the kids were excited to find them all. We used our microphones and markers on the map to communicate together. A few things were inspired by the initial dino discovery:

• The Fortnite map is not small, so we had to agree on initial places to explore, and call out to ask for help if we were fighting (other characters or nonplayers characters, NPCs). This is something we’ve worked on. In the past, the kids got caught up in stress where they forgot to ask for help, or they thought they were invincible and did not need help.

  • This modeled and practiced team building, emotional regulation, and stress tolerance.

• My niece also has an interest in drawing and recently learned about the scientific method in class. She got a notebook and wrote down the details of each Klombo and sketched them.

  • This can help with working memory, something many neurodivergent people need extra practice with. Might as well throw in fun ways to practice recalling facts and details!

• Together, we named them. We also imagined what their personalities were and looked for berries to feed them. There was a limited amount of berry bushes so we took turns picking them, which practiced the executive function skill of flexibility.

• My nephew started dictating the descriptions of the areas we found the dinos so we could find them again.

  • We practiced using the cardinal directions of North, East, South, and West with landmarks to better communicate and navigate as a team.

  • Many ND kids and adults have a poor sense of direction and spatial awareness. Practicing navigating on a virtual map is safer and helps with learning important life skills.

• We all asked questions about their relationship with other dinosaurs and took turns riding them in-game.

Outside of the game, the kids were able to start conversations about dinosaurs and find books and other media to explore. Although the discovery was virtual, my niece and nephew created a real memory with their auntie. We got to explore a world together where we found dinosaurs, fed them, and took turns riding them.

Role-Playing & Archetypal Exploration

Fortnite screenshot, kids teaching me how to build quickly (property of Epic games)

There is a power in role-playing and fully immersing oneself in the world of pretending. Especially as children, there may be a limited definition of belief of what our roles are and who we can be. When we are little, there may be an inclination to wish we were part of the rich worlds of our heroes. In games with avatars, there is the element of choice and experimentation.

The question of “What if?” is very much honored in the world of pretend and virtual play.

• What if we could build into the sky?

• What if we had endless building supplies? What could I build?

• What if I were The Flash or Captain America? What does it feel like to be as powerful and fast as them? And when you play as them, you can believe: “I AM as fast and powerful as them!”

• In certain games, we need a range of roles to make a strong team. Sometimes we can choose the same roles. This is a great exercise in flexibility and team building. Each person can contribute important gifts, even if they are “support” like healers and ranged damage. Not everyone can be or wants to be the tank.

• And if you want to try tanking, it’s safe to try it out together.

• In a world of big people and rules, chaos, and uncertainty, virtual play can be a great release and place to practice putting on different identity hats safely. It also helps with repetition, something brains need to learn new skills as well as incorporate new truths of who they can be.

• Outside games, we may have a certain role or expectations others give us. Trying on different identity hats in games gives freedom for possibility. And again, it offers safety to try it here, leave it, or take it with you when you’re ready.

• As social beings, we need validation and mirroring. When a gamer comes to me with any role or character they choose, that is them in our time together. I can offer acceptance as they explore parts of who they are or identities they are curious about.

  Growing up or living in marginalized, dismissed communities can create lifelong masking where we hide a lot of who we are. Sometimes we forget and maintain the masks for so long, that we need a bit of practice to take the mask off. Games and play are powerful and safe ways to provide this opportunity.

Kids Teaching Adults, Gamers Teaching Their Coach

Me literally being carried by a kid in a Roblox game LOL

In this Fortnite screenshot (above), kids are showing me how to build very quickly. I love that I am a bad gamer. In almost every game I play with kids, I have a learning curve with learning the terminology, how to survive, or basic gameplay. Sometimes I never learn to play well, but the kids adapt. They can play with their more skilled friends later. Our time together has a different meaning.

Kids and gamers can teach me how to “mod” a game, create new characters, find items on a map, or finish a series of quest objectives.

The neat thing about playing virtual games together is there can be an organic development of roles. We have a range of choices where I can be supportive and hold items for my teammates. My gamers, who are usually very skilled, can be the main heroes with an added layer of mastery and displayed competency when teaching me.

Additional Reading: What is Mastery Learning Model

When used in certain ways, video games and play intuitively adopt the Mastery Learning Model (I didn’t know it had a name!) where lessons are student-led. I get to indirectly assess for and test out a range of executive function skills when playing together. Social-emotional and cognitive skills are also mapped out where I can learn the person of the gamer with me.

For our hour together, my gamers assume the role of teacher and guide. It’s something potentially empowering and important for those who are sensitive and quiet and have histories of being misunderstood. They can take this feeling and memory with them outside the game.

And when the game is too difficult, I can help remind them even an ancient lady like me isn’t perfect at everything. We can play for fun, and the challenge to improve. If and when we overcome a challenge, great. If it doesn’t happen, we are still valuable, and the time spent together is worth having.

Protecting Others in Virtual Adventures

Screenshot of game in Roblox, party with 3 heroes

With countless online role-playing games there is a chance for a gamer to be someone’s protector or healer. Depending on the individual archetypes of a person, practicing protecting someone could be an effective way to practice and internalize a feeling of confidence and strength.

• Many in the neurodivergent community have their voices and needs silenced, ignored, or minimized. It makes sense why we escape through special interests and the virtual world so often. We can use our interests to strengthen our voices and advocate for our needs.

• Children live in a world where people are telling them what to wear, where to go, what to eat when to sleep, and how to think. It’s a lot of direction. Playing roles that facilitate a range of strengths to support others is a playful way to develop autonomy and confidence.

• In the Roblox game screenshot, my niece and nephew started a new game with me. They led the fights and directed where to explore. “Let’s go here first! I have a shield so I will protect you, auntie.” I was so proud of them for taking steps towards fighting bad guys and helping one another meet quest objectives.

• Make it applicable. When your gamers are displaying skills and strengths, name them. Show them how these are real parts of themselves and that they can be applied outside games to specific areas of life.

Elden Ring Screenshot, developed by FromSoftware, published by Bandai Namco Entertainment

It’s virtual play AND real memories of being brave, fighting that monster, trying something new, and helping their ancient life coach pass the dungeon.

I love playing fighting and dungeon games because I get to see how brave, patient (because I die and get lost a lot) and strong my gamers can be for others. Whenever I “die” (because I am gonna die multiple times for sure), my gamers can fight on my behalf and be a little braver than they thought they were for someone they care for.

We, adults, care for and protect children. The hope and want is over time, our kids learn to be brave to venture into the unknown. While we have precious time together, we can protect our kids from certain things. If and when they face hardships, the hope is that we have a foundation of memories where they were allowed to be brave and practice in safe environments over time. And as life happens, the games will still be there to practice being brave again when we forget. Some of us need the safety of our games to test reality out, have emotional outlets, or escape for a little. All valid reasons to play. It’s an ebb and flow of life circumstances, and using games with intention can be one of many tools and memories we can offer those we care for.

Additional Reading:

• What Being a Hero in Video Games Teaches Us - blog post

• Failing Forward as a Young Divergent Thinker - blog post

• Why Kids Love Minecraft & How it Benefits Them - HuffPo contribution

• Boonie’s Thoughts on Video Games - YouTube Playlist
  

8 Play Personalities: Video Games to Consider for Each Type

This is a very short list of play personality descriptions and some correlating games to look into. If you know any games that could support a certain play personality, please share in the COMMENTS!

Archetypes are everywhere~ When we are gamers or have gamers in our lives, it can be confusing and overwhelming attempting to understand the merit and strength of an unknown world. With individual balance and perspective can we and gamers in our lives learn to identify what their personal preferences are. If we have one play personality, people with different preferences may be misperceived as spending their time “incorrectly or haphazardly.” It’s similar to a framework of Love Languages where miscommunications can happen because our languages are different.

This list can start conversations and respectful exploration of what creates and instills joy in the people in our lives. It can help bridge misunderstandings, and also invite people to play with the gamers in their lives. We have different reasons to play and different ways to play. They are all valid. A connecting way to build relationships can be honoring how someone plays and facilitating communication through the lens of play.

Play Personalities:

(Referencing Play (pg. 65-70) by Stuart Brown, M.D., founder of the National Institute for Play)

We can use play personalities and other archetypal systems to identify and categorize how we see our gamers and the types of play that matter most to them. For example, Stuart Brown, M.D. identifies 8 play personalities:

The Joker

This may involve silly and nonsensical play. Many games with funny themes or jokes can be a primary source of joy for a Joker. This person may also become a comedian or witty person who has a talent for finding humor in everyday moments. In a world that is too serious and overbearing with bad news, it’s a great outlet to explore and play games that have a lighthearted component. There could be a theme of life is meant to be seen as a range of emotions, where laughter and silliness are important parts of human experience and connection.

• Totally Accurate Battle Simulator

• Ultimate Chicken Horse

• Broken Bones IV (Roblox)

• Fall Guys

• Granny Simulator

• Untitled Goose Game

I am very serious about wellness, but when playing video games my silly side comes out. Here is a video of me playing Cyberpunk 2077 and learning how to drive. Every game has the potential to bring out different personalities. It is just like tools and perspectives—it depends on the person and how you use the tool or game. I decided to use this game as a playful outlet during the beginning of Quarantine. Enjoy :)

The Kinesthete

This type of play involves moving one’s body for the sake of moving the body. There is not much emphasis on competition, but we also have more than one preference in play personalities. A kinesthetic could be an athlete, someone who needs to run and move their body to express joy. There could also be a feeling of connection with the world around you as you move with and observe (also with the Explorer personality). A Kinesthetic personality could play through dance, yoga, building things, taking things apart, and probably learn best by doing. There can be a theme of move and do first, learn and consolidate information and meaning after. (I observe this with SP personality types in the Myers Briggs preferences AND sensory-seeking neurodivergent people).

• VR Games (STEAM)

• DDR

• Just Dance Now

• Just Dance 2022

• Beat Saber

The Explorer

An Explorer finds joy and exhilaration in expanding possibilities and researching areas of interest. According to Brown (2009), this can include the physical and abstract where anything from chasing unknown expanses of the world, participating in food adventures, conducting experiments of all kinds, to rabbit hole researching on the internet or at the library all serve different forms of satiating the desires to explore and know more. A possible theme for the Explorer could be “There is so much beauty and joy in the physical world and concepts around us. We can learn about ourselves and others if we participated fully in this adventure of life.”

• The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild

• Genshin Impact

• Minecraft

• Subnautica

• Best Open World Games (PC Gamer)

• Games that challenge problem solving skills

The Competitor

I pair this play personality with the Perfectionist in this blog. Winning and mastery can become joyful endeavors. You can see this person cranking hours upon hours researching game strategies, practicing their sport, and watching the best in the game compete. There is a rush with being the best, winning, and accumulating points or in-game currency to purchase upgrades and other game-related items. Having a Competitor play archetype can be a gift where you are persistent, driven, and able to focus on long-term goal accomplishments. Playing competitively can also be a way to channel strong emotions after a tough day or channel energy in general. A potential theme for Competitors could be: Competition is healthy, and I have what it takes to improve myself in the things that interest me. I can even be the best in these things.

• League of Legends

• Super Smash Bros

• Fortnite

• Bed Wars (Minecraft)

• Elden Ring

• Games with guilds, ranked PVP, raids, and boss events

• Games that require upgrades and “grinding” to level characters and armor up, achievements

The Director

Brown (2009) states Directors are born organizers of events and scenes. These charismatic people can be seen telling other kids where to go and what to do on the playground, even as young as preschool. I remember seeing young Directors telling other kids what the rules of the game were, what everyone’s roles were, and how to execute their lines of dialogue. Some potential gifts related to being a Director include seeing the natural gifts of others and helping them shape their identities. A theme of Director could be: “…the world’s a stage and the rest of us are only players in the Director’s game” (Brown, 2009, p.68).

• Simulation games

• Real-Time Strategy (RTS)

• Games with generations and evolution, mutation possibilities

• Spore

• Stellaris

• Age of Empires

• Civilization

The Collector

I notice many neurodivergent and 2egifted people have Collector play personalities. There is a need to collect things ranging from tangible, intangible, and experiential things. Having special interests, there could be a want to collect, sort, and classify tangible things like rocks, toys, cards, figurines, trains, toy cars, collectibles, stuffies, leaves, or fossils. OR there could be a mix of wanting to observe and feel a range of emotional experiences. Backpacking across the world to surround oneself with different cultures and foods could be a form of play.

In video games, like Pokemon, the motto is “Gotta catch ‘em all” where you find and battle pokemon and pokemon trainers to level up and win rare and powerful critters. There are hundreds of Pokemon and their evolutions, so it is very much a game involving goal-oriented persistence and repetition.

A potential theme of the Collector could be: I find meaning and joy in accumulating items/memories and surrounding myself with my interests. It is a way to express my identity as well as documentation of a life well-lived and explored.

This Animal Crossing gameplay was lovingly recorded by Jamila Mahfudh, LMFT. She is a Geek Therapist in California who works with adolescents and adults. She risked showing her messy world to create content for the community. lol You can learn more about Jamila at www.jamilatherapy.com

• Magic the Gathering Arena

• Animal Crossing

• Games where you design a home, environment

• Find the Chomiks (Roblox)

• World of Warcraft (collecting achievements, mounts, gear, levels)

• Any game with inventories and gear sets, pet collecting games, Find the X games

The Artist/Creator

Artists find deep meaning in creating. There is an innate need to channel inspiration and personal inquiry by making something. Many times these art works can be private like journaling, or writing song lyrics to cope or commemorate important life events. There could be experimentation with different combinations of media, as well as devotion to one form of art. Artists can range from traditionalists to avante-garde where they push boundaries of artistic expression and what defines art. An artist could seek to grow by mastering their craft through technical skills, or they could also be more focused on the depth of meaning behind their art and how it’s received by an audience. Other times artists do not care about how their work is interpreted. Some themes of creating could be: “What if…?” or “How can I creatively express my subjective experiences/curiosity/a passion in a beautiful or novel way?”

In terms of video games, Minecraft continues to be one of the most popular outlets for virtual expressions of creativity. Animal Crossing and any other game with avatars or the options to change your avatar or decorate home are great tools for creative self expression.

• The SIMS

• Stardew Valley (You can build and organize a farm)

• Minecraft

• Welcome to Bloxburg (Roblox)

• Fortnite (Creative mode: You can build on your Island)

• Games with avatars and skins you can modify or change often

Above is a screenshot from Fortnite creative where my niece and nephew turned my island into a world or trees and hearts for Valentine’s Day. They were able to use the game as a sandbox and use the tools available to express care and creativity. In this sandbox, there are variable trees, foliage, everyday items, and structures to build your unique world.

The Storyteller

Brown (2009) states that storytellers can be the creators of stories but also the ones who consume them. There is a lens of beauty and immersion in seeing stories everywhere you go. It can be in the mundane and exceptional moments of life, stories can be seen in any game a person participates in or observes. Storytellers can intentionally choose to play story-based games as well. The imaginations of Storytellers are rich and deep. They find refuge in the many worlds they belong to, and can world build in detail and complexity compared to other play personalities. (Side note: storytellers probably also love anime, science fiction, or fantasy types of media)

• Life is Strange

• Detroit: Become Human

• GRIS

• Undertale

• Outer Wilds

• Genshin Impact

• Fire Emblem

• Final Fantasy series

• Minecraft (world-building OR following gamers online — Dream SMP)
  

  Please note different games can fall into several categories. We are complex beings. Although we may have similar interests or personalities, the inner experiences we have are still unique to us. When it comes to learning about and connecting with others, we can use references and tools as road maps. The adventure and process of self-discovery may have detours, surprises, and affirming outcomes. Please consider the information shared as a place to start. You get to decide which information to keep and use. You are the hero of your story.

Screenshot, Fortnite, property of Epic Games

Things to Consider:

• Do I have a negative bias towards certain play personalities?

• Do I give myself permission to play without feeling guilty?

• What are some early messages I have about play and playful adults?

• What is my play personality?

• Do I consider Video Games less valid than other forms of play?

• How can I incorporate playful moments into my life?

• What brought me joy as a child, and how can I honor this now?

• When figuring out someone’s play personalities, which values and keywords stand out?

  
  Additional Content:

• Boonie’s Thoughts on Video Games — YouTube Playlist

• What is a Geek Therapist — YouTube Video with Jamila Mahfudh LMFT

• Why Kids Love Minecraft & How it Benefits Them — My HuffPo Contribution

• What Being a Hero in a Video Game Teaches Us — blog post

• Benefits of Minecraft SMPs (mental health, parenting, education) — YouTube Video

• Level Up Your Life! — (I ramble about my educational background, interests, and work) Geekoscopy Podcast
  
  

Five Archetypes to Examine For Personal Development

This is written through the lens of gaming, play, and archetypes, specifically for the sensitive and divergent thinker. For those who do not have a sensitive, outcast, or divergent primary archetype, please feel free to substitute the archetypes and traits as appropriate. This is a way of seeing your archetypes and using them to grow in your unique ways.

Which Archetypes and Roles are you Using?

Personality psychology can be a powerful lens and tool for learning about your gifts, traits, and individual paths of growth. For those of us figuring out who we are, what we are meant to do with this lifetime, it can be overwhelming and confusing because we internalized the archetypes and roles other people gave us.

What does it mean to internalize the roles other people gave us? When we are children and vulnerable, it can be common to accept what people say about us without question. In family systems, there are complex dynamics where we learn to adapt to survive. This adaptation to survive sometimes means we become something that limits our possibility of self.

For instance, in family situations where our sensitivity was seen as a nuisance or weak, we may believe that’s all we are—SENSITIVE and nothing else. We may use this identity as a crutch, because we’ve never seen the strength of sensitivity honored. When we are in an environment where sensitivity isn’t given space to exist safely, we may indirectly believe there is something wrong with us. We may start to think and believe sensitivity is bad, and that we are bad, too.

We may internalize certain messages that accompany the roles or archetypes people told us we were, or the roles and archetypes we used to survive in situations we had little control over.

Some of the Early Archetypal Messages:

• The (Wounded) Healer

  • My needs are not important. In order to create safety and survive in this environment, I have to learn to (or intuitively) read the needs of others, especially ones in positions of power and control. My identity revolves around being able to help others. If I do not help others successfully, there is something wrong with me.

  • My role is to save people and see what they need to heal and grow. I know what they need and can be a catalyst for change. I can see my pain in the struggles of others and can come from a genuine place of empathy.

  • As a child or vulnerable person, it served me well to appease people with authority to keep myself safe or out of trouble.

  • I have antennae for “wounded” people where I can help whoever needs it. Sometimes it feels overwhelming having this need to help others, but it also feels good to help people in so much pain. My personal feelings for painful experiences intertwine with the lives of others and I get overly invested and irritated if I can’t help people “fast enough.”

• The Black Sheep/Outcast/Alien

  • No one understands me. I struggle to find a place to belong, even in communities that have similar types of people and interests. I feel like I will never belong.

  • I’ve been blamed for the collective struggles of groups and relationships when all I want to do is speak the truth and live authentically.

  • I feel special for being different, yet yearn to be part of something intimate and accepting. I may perpetuate this specialness by intentionally acting out in extraordinary ways to get attention. Or I may genuinely express myself in outrageous ways as self-expression.

  • Due to a history of rejection and feeling misunderstood, I may find it difficult to believe someone wants to know me. To avoid rejection, I may push people away or become isolated from human connections.

• The Sick One

  • I always feel weak and may get physically ill often (without physical reason).

  • People remind me and focus on telling me I am “always sick.”

  • I believe my role in being the sick one in the family and didn’t think I could feel better. I accepted this pain, fatigue, and weakness as an unchanging part of life. As a result, it became chronic (again, with no medical support).

  • Being sick allowed others to care for me and it felt good to be the one being cared for. Or it was overbearing and suffocating having people hyperfocus on my health and wellness. I may seek relationships where I continue to be seen as a sick person outside of my other traits and strengths.

• The Victim

  • I am powerless against what happens in life. I am weak and voiceless.

  • People (or entities) continue to take advantage of and manipulate me.

  • I am unable to fight for myself. I wish and hope for a rescuer to save me.

  • I may not know what healthy, respectful relationships look like and unconsciously gravitate towards people who are abusive or unhealthy. Because all I know is being hurt and a society that harms vulnerable people, I am uncertain and confused about what healthy relationships can look like.

  • Because I know what deep pain from being hurt and manipulated feels like, I can offer compassion and gentleness to others struggling. I can also many times fight and speak for others who are in similar situations, but not myself.

• The One With Potential (Perfectionist)

  • I grew up being insightful talking about things adults and peers did not. I was constantly told of my potential and intellectual gifts.

  • Because I was highly creative, curious, and intelligent, I was left without tools and scaffolds to grow. People assumed I would just know what to do in life. I was just a kid but was seen as a “small adult” or “old soul”.

  • Because I was left alone to figure it out, I feel like an imposter. I also think I need to prove my intellectual capacity without any help. I’ve paired asking for help with being inferior and renouncing my intelligence.

  • I am frozen with the extremes of analysis and overdoing. I conceptually understand nothing can be perfect, but stop myself from participating in life because the fear of failing is too strong. I either over-research and prepare things that never lead to creation, or I constantly edit my work and projects because “it’s never good enough.”

  • In relationships, I may never feel like I am good enough a partner or friend. I may sabotage good things thinking I am not deserving of love because I am not perfect.

When You Have One or Many of These Archetypes

Being honest with yourself is a place to start. When you’re highly sensitive or neurodivergent, you can get the message that your thinking or feeling is incorrect compared to the dominant narrative. This is untrue, of course. We all have subjective, personal experiences of what life is and what our inner stories are.

Systemically and politically, too, there are real complex reasons that shape how marginalized people are treated. There are nuances to disability and invisible conditions that make subjective experiences difficult to prove to those who never needed to see through the lens of marginalization and systemic inequality.

These inner experiences are valid and important. When we try to cope with one role, archetype, or persona for survival reasons, we sometimes forget we can be more. We may think we are unsafe to be more (in the past it was unsafe to do so), or we’ve forgotten what other parts of us existed. The wonderful thing about archetypes is the possibility of becoming so much more~ There are possible roles we haven’t tried before because unique reasons. And now it can be time to slowly try on different roles without expectation.

That’s the neat thing about personal empowerment and learning about yourself with loving compassion. It’s a journey, meaning there is no one right or wrong way to do this. When you are ready, the journey is there. There will be challenges and wonderful successes. There will be hardship, and there will be times when you see how much you’ve changed since you started.

If you identify strongly with any of these archetypes, being kind to yourself and accepting of all the ways the archetype shows up in your life is a great first step. How does a person react to this understanding that a role has affected their life both positively and negatively? Again, with patience, compassion, and acceptance.

Accepting that a role existed to survive in the past takes time. This role can also affect you now in the present. Knowing that you have permission to examine the good, bad, and neutral things this role gave you is a process.

• Journal about how these archetype traits affect your personal development and your relationships.

  • What are some ways these roles protected me as a child?

  • What are some strengths I developed from these roles as an adult?

  • What are some messages I want to tell my younger self?

    • This may require a therapist and grief work. You are also welcome to do this work alone, and with trusted people.

  • How did I participate in staying “stuck” in this role?

    • Again, this may need support with a therapist, and you are strong enough to do this work alone.

  • Which messages do I have a difficult time with? Which messages were lies that I believed?

  • Who benefited from me having this role? Who will also have to adjust to my changes?

  • Which parts of this role do I no longer need?

  • Which ROLES or ARCHETYPES no longer serve me now?

  • What can I say to thank my past and current archetypes for how they protected me?

• If you are sensitive or were shamed about an archetype you have

  • Being seen as your whole self can help reduce shame. This can come from finding communities in the fandoms you love.

  • Learning who to share vulnerability and sensitivity with will also take practice.

  • Think about green relationship flags. Before anyone is allowed to see your sensitivity, who supports you without harsh criticism? Who listens empathically without telling you how to live your life? Who sees your strengths and reminds you of them?

    • Who sees your strengths and abilities to fight for yourself? Who lets you do your best to try, fail, and come back when you’re ready?

  • When you have a corrective emotional experience does Shame stop you from believing that things can and have changed for the better?

    • Ask trusted people to help you see all the things you’ve done to grow and fight for your growth!

    • Give yourself compassion to see and believe in how far you’ve come. It takes a fighter to be a sensitive person in a harsh world.

• Using your fandoms and interests to support personal development

  • If I could be another archetype to grow in life, which one would it be?

    • Look at the heroes, fandoms, video games, and stories you love. Which characters are you cheering for? Which story arcs feel the most personal to you? Think about how these stories are similar to yours.

    • Find the strengths and successes in the stories you gravitate towards. Give yourself permission to be as heroic as these characters.

  • Where is it safe for me to practice loving my archetypes and trying new ones?

    • Video games, cosplay, comics, online communities, making art, role-playing, coaching, and therapy are all valid ways to try new roles. They can be a part of you in these worlds, and when you are ready/want to, a part of you to share with others and the outside world.

    • Draw your archetypes. See which ones speak the most to you, and which are hiding or waiting to have permission to show up.

    • Make art without any intentions in mind. Focus on a theme or archetype you’d like to channel.

  • Did these characters receive help from others?

    • Find your own aides, mentors, and special people.

  • What are some of the mantras or affirmations you love from these fandoms? Write them down!

  • Did these characters struggle with darkness, and cycles of ups and downs?

    • You have your own journey of ups and downs, too.

Archetypal growth and personal development are part of lifelong processes and cycles. Wherever you are along this journey, there is a collective of people who have similar struggles. It can help to heal and grow knowing so many people identify with and believe in the same heroes you do. There are so many people walking their paths, tripping, falling, and getting back up with hard-earned wisdom to keep going. Again, at their own pace and time. Just like you.

Additional Research or Reading Topics:

• Joseph Campbell & Bill Moyers - The Power of Myth

• The Enneagram

• The Ultimate Archetype List

• Caroline Myss

• Jean Shinoda Bolen

• Tarot Archetypes

• 12 Jungian Archetypes

Failing Forward as a Young Divergent Thinker

“You’re so smart and creative. You can do anything you set your mind to!”

We live in a practical world. When you’re an abstract thinker or an idealist heart, the world can leave gaps in understanding oneself, seeking purpose, or knowing where to start.

It can be unbearably overwhelming to the point where you lose interest in the things you originally loved, or you quit and become the “burnt-out gifted person.” It’s a thing! And there could be this lingering self-doubt that freezes you from trying something new. You can get stuck in a very dark place where you think, “If it’s not perfect, I can’t do it. So why try?” OR you jump from subject to subject because it’s not the ONE you want to pursue the rest of your life.

The messages we get for being smart (talented) and having “so much potential” make us question if we are doing something wrong because we’re not successful. Or if we are successful, we are pushing ourselves towards burnout every day to appease the pressures of being perfect for other people (or ourselves).

The expectations can become very powerful messages we can internalize. These messages can shape how we see ourselves, and sometimes, in negative ways.

Don’t know what to do for the rest of my life — SHAME

A Path Less Taken

When you’re a scattered thinker, your brain and body are supposed to consume different sources of information across time. The problem is parts of our society, especially school and work are made for people who pursue linear, very rigid life paths. Although that can lead to stability, it doesn’t always cultivate curiosity, awe, and purpose.

And what does it mean to have a purpose?

This is something we each figure out on our own. Through relationships, exploring possibilities, and having safe opportunities to test out realities can a divergent thinker learn to thrive. Because the formative years of a divergent thinker’s life involve living in a society that does not support our gifts and needs, we need extra time and support to practice figuring out what works and what doesn’t work for us.

Permission to Fail Forward

Society has failed neurodivergent people

When the world isn’t made for you, there is a common occurrence of “failing” more than others. (It’s a very confusing world.) Does that mean YOU are a failure?

Heck No. You are not a failure. Society and systems have failed so many people over and over again.

School is stuck in archaic traditional systems that create factory workers. That mindset and expectation that students sit for six hours a day and regurgitate information for a test are VERY OUTDATED. Many older generations accepted the life of working 40-hour weeks and waiting until retirement to enjoy life or travel. I am grateful to see younger generations challenge what it means to have a purpose, the meaning of work, and the overall meaning of having a life well-lived. So what do you do after you accept that society and life are more difficult for those who think differently?

• Accept that your cognitive profile is different, which means it will take time to learn what your cognitive strengths and areas of improvement are.

  • Sensory needs can also be something to explore and honor.

• Accept that society is not made for us, which means redefining what a life well lived means for YOU.

  • This can change over time. Surprise! In life, you are allowed to change your mind and explore things again.

• Cultivate self-compassion when trying and failing. Maybe it’s executive function skills. Maybe it’s timing. Maybe it’s a few more other skills you need before it all clicks. As a neurodivergent person, your brain needs different types of learning experiences to connect it to the big picture.

• Think & Journal: Which learning tools and environments supported you the most? Find more of that.

  • Ask others what they think your ideal learning spaces look like, and where your eyes lit up from joy and flow.

• Negative self-talk. What are the painful messages you have about failing or not “meeting your potential”? Journal about them. Talk to supportive people about these thoughts so you can learn healthier, and kinder messages to tell yourself.

• Acknowledge your role in self-sabotage and pushing away good advice.

  • We are not perfect, we are not immune from stopping ourselves from growing even if it’s a good thing. When you’re used to failing, it can be a comfortable cycle staying in the same place. Growing and changing are brave things to do.

• Visualization. Create vision boards, Pinterest boards, mood boards about the feelings you want to embrace, the kinds of careers you want to try, the areas of interest that bring you joy, purpose, and excitement! MAP IT ALL OUT.

  • Give yourself time to try different things without judgment.

  • Come back to the visuals to check how you feel about each item over time. Track how they make you feel.

• Practice failing in safer environments, around safe people.

  • Video games are the perfect place to fail and try safely. So many life skills and growth can happen virtually.

  • Coaching and mentoring can also help shape resiliency to try again and have more positive messages related to failing.

  • Watch videos and listen to podcasts about those who are similar to you, heroes that inspire you.

• Community and resonance. It’s really difficult to do this alone. And although your hero’s journey is uniquely yours, it’s important to learn to trust and allow people in so they can support you as well as witness your hardships and transformation. Online communities count. Fandom communities count.

All parts of you are worthy of being seen and supported.

Reading recommendations:

• Wired to Create: Unraveling Mysteries of the Creative Mind

• Smart but Scattered

• Transcend: The New Science of Self Actualization

• SuperBetter: The Power of Living Gamefully

• Refuse to Choose!: Use All of Your Interests, Passions, and Hobbies to Create the Life and Career of Your Dreams